Did some reading and was came across somethings pretty interesting..

'Yes' is a word of change.
'No' is a dead end.

It's an article on a guy that spend the whole year i think saying yes and not no. And he's amazed by the results in the end. He got a successful career, a wife and more.. Many at times, one is too used to rejecting opportunities that come by and hence, end up accomplishing much less than what's available/ capable.

But i doubt i'd be able to do that.. I'm not a risky person afterall. But well, will try to accept things at times and see how the results will be.

No doubt that yes is a word of change...


Another interesting article on the benefits of boredom..

"Boredom's doldrums" were unavoidable, yet also a primordial soup for some of life';s most quintessentially human moments.......We are most human when we feel dull. Lolling around in a state of restlessness is one of life's greatest luxuries- one not available to creatures that spend all their time pursuing mere survival...

"To be bored is to stop reacting to the external world, and to explore the internal one. It is in these times of reflection that people often discover something new.

Boredom is an essential human emotion that underlies art, literature, philosophy, science and even love....


So well, boredom isn't that bad after all...:p

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If you only have one week left, what would you do? This question remains unanswered for me...

Went to celebrate my grandpa's birthday and met up with my relatives once again. Didn't talk much cause I'm not very close to them, as well as my cousins.. Well. So i end up listening to their conversation and observing how they have changed.

My grandma has become wheelchair-bound after the fall and have since spent majority of her time on bed. Witnessing how a healthy and 'strong' person can end up being a real skinny, weak and one whose voice isn't as audible as before, just makes me think how fragile life can be. It really is...

Furthermore, my other relative needs to extract water out from her body every 3 weeks as there's something wrong with her kidney/ liver? And her stomach is real bloated as a result, with the face loosing much fat due to poor appetite..

Such incidents are so near me and i'm real fortunate to be still a healthy child, but one whose unsure of what's really important in his life. So what if u have the best degree, a good job that yields good income?

I seriously can't imagine the life I'd live if anything bad were to happen to me. The closest i've ever experience this was during CAC camp where I almost think I'll lose sight for one of my eyes. Things aren't that bad as I can still rely on my other, but this incident is enough to create amplify the internal fear in me...

Was watching a show on how the lifestyle change for a mid age woman who lost her sight, leaving 2 young kids and her husband around.. I'm truly look upon her courage and motivation to continue life as it is, despite it being a 180 degree change in lifestyle. If that happens to me, what will be the choice I'd make? To avoid or to accept?

Having spending my 21 years plus doing lots of things, but how many 'milestones' have I created for myself to make my life as meaningful and fulfilling, with what I have in hand now, that will be lost in the future, or perhaps, near future? Am i contended with what i have? Is my focus on track? What's the impression i give to others? Will i be remembered down the years?

It's really worth spending some thoughts finding out what's really important to you...

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It's the start of the recess week for me.. Yea!!! And it's time to do some catching up for my studies, but most importantly, meet up with friends.

This 2 week is damn hectic for me. OB presentation was really a great success! Just love my group for OB. It's really quite some time since i really enjoyed the process of getting work done. My principle holds, what matters most is the process, whatever the result serves is doesn't quite matter, but doing it well is a bonus.

V day was spent with my NAF peeps and 'old' gang. No doubt seeing the couples out there make me feel a bit uneasy. Still in search of the special someone... Well, spending time with great friends in your life isn't any much worse...:p


This week is crazy man. Had 2 quizes. Don't think i'll do well for OB, but well, at least i forced myself to clear half of this sem work for 2 modules. Really managed to clear some of my doubts during this week.. Happy~~ This week is so like preparing for exams man.. Good that it's over...

Recess week is not gona be free for me. Apart from catching up with school work (which i doubt i have the time), there's group projects, birthday celebration, outings and impresario stuff for the wkends.. Sighx... Trying my best to manage my time well..

I feel that my mood for this sem is quite relaxed and easy-going man. Perhaps I've managed to get closer to my tutorial mates, and seeing a need to spend more time with time. And putting less focus on studies.. But well, at least i'm still on par or well, just a little off, i think...

And here's some events that really added much joy and laughter to my uni life this first half of the sem- my first zouk party, tutorial class outing, NAF fringe event and canvassing... ha

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A follow-up from the previous post... Photos....

13 Jan 09 - A day that I've been waiting for and it's really a blast!! I really felt a sense of satisfaction and fulfillment seeing the big day that we've been preparing for since Sep 08? All the effort is really worth it.. The goodie bag is really a big wow wow.. Never have I seen such a filled-up goodie bag.. And it all started off with rejections from all companies on cash sponsorship. So proper proposing for in-kinds sponsorship kicks off in oct.. Really proud of the biz mag team man!!!

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13 Jan 09- The opening of NAF '09.

My first major accomplishment in NTU.. All our hard work is paid off, with a beautiful opening of a 2 month long event. Felt great with all the positive comments from friends and strangers with regards to the event, publicity and goodie bags!

Have really learnt a lot from this, and most importantly, made great friends whom i'm sure will be together with time..:p

Happy~~~

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I know this entry comes in a bit late, but well, better than none right. First week of school is really honeymoon period. Went singing with my tutorial mates before lectures on Tuesdays. It's great that our tutorial clique has become closer..:p Tutorials aside, it's time for me to really sit down and reflect.


2008- A turning point in my life

26 March 08 - CPL (NS) Ng stepped out into the civil world with his pink I/C in hand- a mark of freedom partnered with challenges nearing. Looking back at my 2 years in NS, I've really made some great friends in there- people who have made my 2 years a much shorter and happening one. Not forgetting my supervisors, Angeline and my 2 COs in particular for teaching me the life skills which are so relevant and important the second you step into the working world.



Early April - One15

My first long-term job in my 21 years. It's really a great exposure for me- being able to step into a 5 star marina club that's exclusive to members and more importantly, witnessed how scary office politics can turn out to be. I've known great friends in there, whom I still keep in contact to date- Pei Fen, Lowrence, Keat, Mong'er, Wei Yuan, Ethan, just to name a few. I'm sure life in One15 would be better if I'm in your department.


07 Jun 08 - My 21st

I've survived 21 years with joy, laughter, sorrow and pain. A day that really meaningful to me. Having all my great friends with me to mark my 21st is really a day worth remembering. Which other occassion would you have all your different cliques of friends coming together for a common objective, that iis, of course, with you witnessing it. Ha.


End June - Bangkok Trip

My first overseas trip with my friends. A week well-spent. A week when I can truly put all my worries aside and enjoy to the max. Great company. It's really a moment worth looking back.


End July - The birth of Ofira

My first and only camp in university. Great bonds forged. Camps are indeed the best platform to know more people and make great friends. Not forgetting the fear of lossing sight of one of my eyes. I still remember that that's a point in life that I fear so much- the fear of failing to see my loved ones and friends. Fortunately, everything is in the past. And I really thank bao rui for being there with me throughout that period. It feels bad being alone out there, feeling helpless. It really is.


Early Aug - Start of sch and hall life

School starts with me stepping into a room that I'm going to live in for another 3/4 months from now. Hall life is well, perhaps, just not suitable for me- one who refuses to take the initiative to know more people. It's awkard i feel, to be with a big group of people whom you don't really know, having lunch, dinner or just gather. Counting the number of people I know in hall till date, it's definitely less that 10. And the number whom I can ask out for meals, 1/2. That's how pathetic I am. Sometimes, I feel that I am dragging myself to hall after lessons. The loneliness and boredom in that empty, hot room. Well, it's really just a place for me to sleep.

School life on the other hand is pretty good. Scarcity= making a choice between hall or school and cca. And it's obvious what I've chosen. And to date, no regrets, cuase I know my limits and i'm sure something else will definitely be affected if I were to commit more.

Academic wise, everything is alright. No fantastic grades, but enough to fulfill my dream if I were to maintain it for the rest of my 2 1/2 years. It's great that I manage to form quite a closely-knitted group of tutorial mates..:p


NAF- the cca that i've been busy with for the last sem. Being business manager is raelly no joke man. It's really a test of your coordination and liaising skills. Taxing, but I'm loving it, esp with a great team of friends who are working towards a common goal which is so visiable to me now! NAF 09!!! I've really felt a great sense of accomplishment, giving secured around 20 sponsors for our goodie bags with the effort of the whole team. That's what I've wanted to achieve when I joined NAF 09, and I've achieved it. Just some little touching up to do to make it a great success!


WSC- The maint event, if approved, will be yet another challenge I'm going to undertake. A charity event outside school. I'm so hoping the proposal will be approved and so looking to planning it and making another miracle possible! Despite some disputes we had over some issues, things, hopefully, still goes on well. Uncertainy awaits, but I'm sure it will happen.


The one month vacation is well-spent for me. Have been pretty busy with NAF stuff during teh dec holidays. And what's more important are the meeting up of friends who have felt their foot prints in my life. I will, to the best of my ability, ensure that these footprints remains intact, withstanding the huge waves that one may foresee approach. But once again, whether the footprints remain strong and intact depends on each and every individual. Scarcity is cruel and only allow one to prioritize his time and offer it to those whom he deem important.

 
25 Dec 08 - My first Chirstmas gathering/ gift exchange

Spent with my tutorial group, It's really great to celebrate this special occasion with a group of very special friends who have been with me for 4 months plus.


31 Dec 08 - Ushering the new year with fireworks

The first fireworks that the four of us gather and see together in 9 years!


2008 is really a great and fulfilling year for me. Having accomplished much without neglecting the friendships that are so hard to maintain, I do hope 2009 will be a better one. And here's just some of the many things I wish to accomplish for this year:

1. Maintain a second upper class honours
2. Make the WSC event a woola
3. Ensure a beautiful ending for NAF 09
4. Form/ mainain great cliques of friends in uni whom I'm sure I depend on
5. Go for OCIP
6. Head to Australia with my friends
7. Spend more time with family and great friends
8. Celebrate our 10th anniversary, you know who you are
9. Be a more confident person
10. Good health
11. Train and attempt Standard Chartered
12. Have a better build. Ha.
13. Many more to come.....

Till then, it's back to the start of mugging.

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The holidays gona be over pretty soon.. Sighz... Start of a new sem, start of a new challenge, start of............

The holidays is really well spent for me. On top of being busy with cac and wsc stuff, have met up with quite a few groups of friends, be it pri, sec, jc, ns, work, uni... Felt real happy to spend time with groups of friends who have changed my life in my past 21 years. People have changed, topics no longer linger on academic, looks are more or less there and mentality changed.

But still, something is missing... Things could have be more complete with hall. Limited time = determining what you really want and this is what I've chosen...

2 1/2 years more to go before stepping out to the working world. Still in search of the perfect one...

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Friendships isn't just about creating new ones...
It's about maintaining and sustaining it...

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The most tiring wkend thus far man...

Meet up with ct and gang for bdae celebration.. Sang from 1-7.. Fun fun.. Hope ct enjoy his day...:p

Met my naf group before meeting the impre pple straight ater that for the standard chart run helpout... Meeting with tha naf pple are great man.. Played bear and hunter for hours.. It was damn fun man...

Met the impre pple thereafter.. Quite sian actually... But bo bian.. Gona pao qi my naf pple for the impre.. Just becoz i'm registered under them..=_= 2 distinct groups, 1 quiet, anti-social me on a near empty highway, thinking...... The worst moment ever. And things doesn't stop here. This is a great experience i'd never forget for life.... Picking up all thousands of soggy, wet cups and bottles in the middle of ecp with bare hands while the cleaners took their own sweet time to pick them up with brooms. Worse case, they 'destroyed' the boxes such that we have no choice but to throw on the floor, and picked them up thereater. F off lahz... Damn pissed throghout the whole night....

Went back home to sleep for 2 hours before going for pam's party. Waited for the bus for 1 1/2 hours..=_= Cui lo.. Dinner time and no bus to aloha.. Should have just walked in.. Stayed there for 2 nights, hanging out with pam, lw an her family... It's really a damn relaxed experience man.. Went k box on the first night as well..:p

Went orchard wtih py ytd, straight after leaving the chalet.. Went window shopping. It really cost to be good man.. Shirts and stuff are so ex, and i'm not sure if it's really worth appearing good.. Haix...

I realised i'm just so not comfortable with big groups. So not into initiating myself to know more people. I don't mind small groups, but big groups just make me drop the idea of knowing more people. Solitude. This has been my character since young, and it still is now... I just find it tiring to know more people, esp big groups... Yar..

And i'm real thankful for those who have been with me till today... Thanks for making my day...:p

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It's all about stepping out of your comfort zone isn't it...

I've changed, if i chose to. But still, i am who i am when with others....

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